It has been awhile since I sat down to write a post to my readers. There has been a lot going on in my life, so I would like to share and hang out with my readers in a way.
If we went out to coffee I would tell you that life is hard sometimes. Life isn't turning out the way that I expected that it would. Coming to the realization that I have to let my expectations go in order for me to get over the disappointment. Is it easy? Not a chance but it is more than possible. Everything happens for a reason so even if it feels terrible while it is happening. Life can be overwhelming and if you are like me you can feel like you are drowning sometimes. It may be easier to let the water overcome you but don't. Life is worth fighting for. It may not be easy and you may barely keep your head above the water, but you will definitely get there. It takes time. I am still trying o get to the point where I feel like my feet are on the ground again. It will happen one day. I don't know how long it will be but I need to believe that life will be alright again.
If we went out to coffee I would tell you that sometimes it hurts to find out who your friends are or the fact that who you thought were your friends really weren't. I think the hardest part of life right now is knowing that the friends I used to count on aren't here anymore. They left my life and that was the choice that they made. No matter how hard I tried to do things with them, even at time that they made plans and I didn't want to go, I went anyway because they were my friends. I've been slowly finding out that they weren't truly my friends and they really don't want me to be a part of their lives. I have to live with this realization which has been pretty hard lately. I thought our friendship was worth way more than it really is. I would be lying if I said that I didn't miss my friends or the people I thought were my friends. I miss them, I really do. People tell me that they weren't worth my time or that they aren't the type of friends I should want to have. I'm told that they were my friends for a reason and now, whatever that reason is, is complete or no longer relevant. I am the one that gets to deal with the heartache because I am the one hat lost my friends, they didn't lose each other just me, and I guess I am an acceptable lost. I am finding out that my social life is slowly disappearing.
If we went out to coffee I would tell you that I am in the middle of upgrading my website and starting with my own domain name and hopefully a new layout and look. I would still have my current site but it will be directed to my new site. I am hoping this will bring more readers in, but I also want to keep my current readers. You are the readers that keep coming back and the ones I appreciate the most. I hope everything will work out great. The new site won't be live for a little while. I want to make sure it is perfect before I announce it live.
If we went out to coffee I would tell you that I am looking at going to school to get my insurance licenses and possibly my MLO. I want to further my career and knowledge of products. It would be nice to take some classes again and learn new things. I am hoping to start these classes fairly soon because I think I need something else besides the blog to keep me distracted. Wishing me luck would be pretty amazing.
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